First Date

It is exciting, to most extent. It makes me giddy. The less I know about him the better, because otherwise I'm likely to start talking about the music of Vanessa Carlton and Darren Aronofsky's films. I worry it won't be an instant click, though. I'll breathe, and laugh and seem interested and then when the bill for dinner comes I'll excuse myself to the bathroom. I love being me. 

Maybe MAybe MAYbe MAYBe MAYBE

Nothing like pouring your heart out to someone you dated for about three minutes over two years ago...

Maybe it's because he knows about Bette Davis or maybe it is because he has his very own Alanis.
Maybe it's because I am rut and find myself wondering where I am headed.
or maybe, just maybe he and I would be perfect together. 

August

I do not understand what i say anymore
I talk about it as though you're still right next to me

but i know you are gone
you are wrong
this wast the greatest moment, although only for a second or two
I will always get nostalgic
I will always want to cry

This is the start of something new
but what kind of bullshit is that?
I just think i should be everything
"Who do you feel like being today?"
he'd say

I was so ready for that vault to be sealed. 
It now, 
It gets tighter and tighter

sometimes I look out my window
and I see you pulling in the driveway, rushing up to me
I get lost when I have to turn around
We were once the greatest bond I knew

And I just need to get this out, maybe
It was no longer the vanessa carlton life

When I fell in the moment
It took me too long to get out

(sloves)

unfinished, of course

I fell in love once
I've been in love several times more
But this one was different
But I'm sure I said that all before

I thought my heart was burning
but maybe it was hormones from the new
I thought I was done looking
But that could be with anyone, not just you

You were nothing special
At least in my head where you disappear
You were nothing special
Now my heart, it lives in fear

The Best Albums of the Decade

Dido - Life for Rent (2003)

For me, this is as good as Dido can probably ever get, and that is okay by me. The slumber, electronic sound that caresses throughout the entire album can be soothing, confronting, and ambient all at once without being too overbearing. While the entire world knew “White Flag” (which opened the album) it was the album’s closing song, “See the Sun,” that instantly made this album a top five of all time.

Alanis Morissette - Under Rug Swept (2002)

Although technically this is more of an honorable mention, it is THE album that forever transformed the way I listened to music. It was “Hands Clean,” arguably Alanis’ most radio friendly single to date that got my attention, and I haven’t stopped listening since. Aside from maybe two other songs (“Surrendering” comes to mind) the album was kind of mediocre.

Toni Collette and the Finish - Beautiful Awkward Pictures (2006)

My personal love for Toni Collette, the actress, came from accidentally discovering Toni Collette, the musician. An Australia only release, it fits like a glove in my music collection. Earthy, meaningful lyrics that are accented, never overdone, by the music of The Finish make this album near perfect. “Look Up,” the second single is the most poignant and uplifting song I have ever heard.

Tori Amos - Scarlet’s Walk (2002)

It can be overwhelming to discover an artist you like when already there are multiple albums under their belt. Scarlet’s Walk, Tori’s seventh studio album, was my first exposure to the goddess, and maybe because of that, it will always be her best to me. This, as with most of her albums, is a concept from start to finish. Usually I would find songs such as this to be impersonal but so many songs on Scarlet’s Walk bring a piece of me on Scarlet’s American road trip.

Dixie Chicks - Taking the Long Way (2006)

It’s political without politics. It’s country without the cowboy. It doesn’t require many words to say, with assurance, that it is one of the best albums to come from the country genre in a very long time.