First Date

It is exciting, to most extent. It makes me giddy. The less I know about him the better, because otherwise I'm likely to start talking about the music of Vanessa Carlton and Darren Aronofsky's films. I worry it won't be an instant click, though. I'll breathe, and laugh and seem interested and then when the bill for dinner comes I'll excuse myself to the bathroom. I love being me. 

Maybe MAybe MAYbe MAYBe MAYBE

Nothing like pouring your heart out to someone you dated for about three minutes over two years ago...

Maybe it's because he knows about Bette Davis or maybe it is because he has his very own Alanis.
Maybe it's because I am rut and find myself wondering where I am headed.
or maybe, just maybe he and I would be perfect together. 

August

I do not understand what i say anymore
I talk about it as though you're still right next to me

but i know you are gone
you are wrong
this wast the greatest moment, although only for a second or two
I will always get nostalgic
I will always want to cry

This is the start of something new
but what kind of bullshit is that?
I just think i should be everything
"Who do you feel like being today?"
he'd say

I was so ready for that vault to be sealed. 
It now, 
It gets tighter and tighter

sometimes I look out my window
and I see you pulling in the driveway, rushing up to me
I get lost when I have to turn around
We were once the greatest bond I knew

And I just need to get this out, maybe
It was no longer the vanessa carlton life

When I fell in the moment
It took me too long to get out

(sloves)